Have you ever felt this way?

I woke up with tears in my eyes.
5th day of the week.
Prayed for the 1st in these 3 months,with hesitation at first.

Crushed like cornflakes. Loss of appetite. Ben&Jerry's don't even do wonders now. =(
Supposingly Taking me to Pre-Rouge for ice-cream sounds nice.
I've got my But(s)...What on earth is happening to me.

Oh just to let you know..
It's called my happy ending. NOT.
I've never been so depressed and yes,emo, for such a long time. It's not that I wanna be. -sobs-
Arghh.
Omg. Went to weigh myself. Lost 4kg. Like 1kg everyday.
Okay. This is some news.
It's so freaky. Always thought that only exercising helps to shed off pounds. But Dieting? NOOOOoo..
What does this mean? Are all these things happening to me now becos' I haven't had my puberty?
ERRrr..Nah. Okay.
This is no joking matter pple.

I'm losing focus on my work.
Wanted to do this trophy design thing and I was sitting by my study table for an hour and my paper's blank.
Omg. This's some serious shit.
I'm so used to get last-minute things going but now my dear creative juices has some kinda drainage problem or smth - blockage must be.
Red Bull might help. It gives us wings.
(If you've caught the ad,it's one funny one.)
And yes. I am wearing stripes today- some kinda jail-bird. Stuck in a Situation.
My dad thinks I'm abnormal.Why.I don't binge anymore. I can finish the entire junk food amount in the fridge in the past. Very horrible. haha.
Okay. This is so weird. So, hmm.. I'm "exceptional."
Enough talking about my life. Kinda sick of it. Gotta get a Grip. Hurry.

Special Dedication to myself.

Liz Phair - Why Can't I
Lyrics
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't f***ed yet, but > heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'for this that we can controlBaby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you